Friday, February 5, 2010

Noise


Noise is a part of every mama’s life. It can’t be escaped. From the moment the first phone call is cut short due to excessive background screaming, to the first time you leave mass wondering what the reading and homily were even about, noise is an everyday fixture in family life.
Mathematically speaking,

noise + X = mama guilt.

You see, the X is my response to noise and I’m here to say,

“My name is Holly and I react poorly to the noises my children contribute to my life.”

So, in an effort to grow as a person, wife and mother, I’ve been trying to identify that X and react and adjust accordingly.

My first realization: it’s not only the children that create the noise pollution in this household. It’s all the things I add to the mix.

As a work from home mama with the pipe dream of writing burning stronger every day, I’m in front of the computer for the majority of my waking hours. When the screaming and whining are more than I can take, I hire a babysitter. I have two I turn to most often. Their names are Dora and Elmo and they cost me about $17 bucks a month in cable services.


I’ll pause so you can judge, if you so wish………



So now the TV has been flipped on, Elmo is singing with a lisp in third person form, I’m at the computer, one kid is whining and the other kid is screaming as they fight over the electronic toy whose annoying song I’m convinced was composed just to assault my eardrums. I continue on and at some point, the phone is added to the equation. And this is a typical day in my home.

The other day my husband (who also works from home) tried to have a conversation with his wife. Poor guy. As he took a seat across the room in his chair, he placed all of these distractions between us physically. In order to give him the time of day, I had to bring my hands to my face and block my peripheral vision in order to listen to him. He looked at me like I was insane.

“What are you doing?” He asked.

“There’re too much going on and I can’t focus on what you’re saying.” I responded.

This poor attempt at communication with my husband made me think about other important things I may be missing out on because there is too much going on. I believe God speaks to us. But am I drowning Him out with all the noise around me?

By the evening, I had a major malfunction. The girls went to sleep and I felt anxious and jittery. All of my normal evening activities involved the computer and TV and I just couldn’t bring myself to look at either of them. I didn’t know what to do with myself and so I did what I always do when confusion consumes me. I got in bed and pulled the covers over my head.

“Ummm, what are you doing?” My husband asked.

“I don’t know I just need quiet. I can’t take any more noise right now. I need dark and quiet.” I responded.

“Don’t you have to work tonight?” he asked.

“Yeah, I just need 10 minutes of nothing. I’m craving some nothing.” I told him.

I didn’t get out of bed until the wake up alarm otherwise known as the screams on my youngest, Anna, woke me this morning.

The old saying is true. Peace and quiet really do go hand in hand. In my much needed time with quiet last night I indeed found a bit of peace - and my Lenten promise for this year.
It’s time for me to unplug a bit. It’s my hope I’ll be able to clear some noise from my head and my heart. This year, Lent will be my shield as I attempt to ward off the many things attacking my senses. Maybe then I’ll be hearing things a bit more clearly.

16 comments:

Holly said...

Thanks for coming by my place. Happy Friday Follow!
Holly @ 504 Main

Katie said...

Well, put! We all need that reminder to drop the clutter of life and listen to what God may be telling us.

And I totally love your reference to lisping, third-person talking Elmo! I was DYING to take a much-needed shower this morning, but I prolonged it so that my kids ended up watching Dragon Tales instead of Elmo's World on Sesame Street - it drives me nuts to hear that monster!!

CRAZYMOM said...

Have a blessed Lenten Season. Fruday Following you.

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Kim said...

I agree with Katie - well put! A great topic for conversation tomorrow morning! I struggle with similar things... and the kids seem to suffer - as does my prayer life. How do we balance responsibilities, dreams and our needs, and our kids and husbands, and prayer life? Do you know about the 5 P's from A Mother's Rule of Life? I commend your Lenten sacrifice... it sounds like a great idea! - something I've been thinking Andy and I should consider too.
It certainly is great timing for a retreat! A bunch of peace, prayer time, and relative quiet coming your way!! See ya tomorrow!

PS: I think Elmo is supposed to be a 3 year old and talk like a typical three year old. I'm quite sure neither of my kids have ever talked in 3rd person like that, whether they were 2, 3, or 4.

Rae Nolt said...

Love your blog! New to Friday Follower and LOVING getting to know fellow blogger friends!

Roxane B. Salonen said...

Holly, what is the Friday Follower thing? Anyway, I respect your thoughts here, totally. My blog will be changing temporarily through Lent reflecting a more inward and sparse appearance. I hope if you have time you'll still peek in every once in a while. I always love it when you do. But I also think it's really good to have some unplugged time. Blessings, and thanks again for your comment on my blog today. :)

Midday Escapades said...

Thanks for linking up with Friday Follow! I am now your blog follower. Happy weekend!

~ Lynn
http://www.middayescapades.com

Melissa @ Cellulite Investigation said...

Some people are more sensitive to these things. I was so relieved when I read a book called The Highly Sensitive Person by psychologist Elaine Aron. Helped me understand myself a whole lot better! Sending best wishes your way.

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HeartsMakeFamilies said...

Well put. Sometimes I just want to escape the noise too.

Welcome to the Friday Follow. I'm your newest follower. So glad to have you with us. I'm way behind but here I am.

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